Turning the pages…
Good Morning Father
Even as I wrote the word…Father…I am so aware of my gratitude for you as a Father.
That you would not leave me Fatherless.
When I think of the reality of growing up without a father – it’s surreal really.
No safe hug
Which left me looking in all kinds of places for these things.
My flesh is still bent to search for these these as though there is an earthly need of some sort that will be met.
I run here and there in search of the answer.
The need to resolve.
The need to make right.
The need to be good enough.
My mind springs back
the first time I knew
The One who protects
The Overseer of all things
He cared enough to reach from heaven
this broken, tattered, filthy heart
with the tenderest of touch
and has never let go.
God showed me
the first moment
He whispered, My Father, My God
I AM your portion
I AM your salvation
I AM your hope
I will protect you
I will oversee you in all things great and small…
I will teach you to filter all things
I AM your safe place
I will guide you in all truth
How many times since that beautiful day
have I forgotten?
I so easily move to the left or right searching
When He is right in front of me
with the same gentle whisper of 1979
This is the way
walk in it.
He promises to be my portion
He knows I will fail
Yet He promises to love me
and to be my strength
and not just for a day – but forever!
My heart and my flesh may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever!
Emphasis – mine.
Strength – mine.
Portion – mine.
He does not leave me fatherless.
Help me Father to walk according to your leading in the coming year.
Show me what you want to teach me.
Keep my eyes, heart and mind steadfast upon you.
Help me to be a willing student.
Keep my eyes open to you as they were that sweet day in 1979.
The scripture leading up to Psalm 76:23 says:
When my soul was embittered, when I was pricked in heart,
I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast toward you.
Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and
my portion forever.
I have found great peace in these words through 2013. They have been an anchor. They have given me courage. One step at a time.
What are you hearing as you turn the page this last day 2013?
I would love to hear about it.
Where did you struggle?
Where were you met in the struggle?
How did you find hope?
What keeps you putting one foot in front of the other?
Enjoy this beautiful song by Audrey Assad as you ponder my words.
Grateful for you!